Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Beoming the Beloved

An exerpt from my journal:

Tuesday, 6-October, 2009
Cantabrigia, 1:24 PM

I sit in this magical place, by the DeWolfe footbridge, on the banks of the Charles, in the warm embrace of a huge oak tree which is sending me love from Mother Earth, Godess Gaia herself. Her roots firmly planted here; my roots firmly planted here as well - in this magical land of Cantabrigia.

I have spent the morning flooding my brain with powerful, positive energy - Deepak, Osho, Shazzie - and now feel reconnected to all the beauty and loveliness both within and without my body. This is a marvelous moment; I am right here in each and every second - fully conscious, fully aware - FULLY- feeling fully alive. So often I do not experience this lately. It is the thing that I need always.

I have decided I must find another way to sustain myself. A way that reinforces the beauty and essence of me; the life force running through my veins and without of my physical body; from the earth, Godess Gaia - through all her wisdom, wonder and magic; up through the sky, across the sun and the stars and throughout the universe; the sustainance and nourishment of humanity and of every sentient being - I feel this very same life force coursing through my veins, now inspiring me to go on.

I feel this so strongly and so surely as I sit here today, in Mother Nature's womb - this big, old oak tree.

I have watched myself in these last few months, the waves of emotions and low vibrations wash over me, and have noted my response to these. My involvement with B. has become a very interesting learning tool for me - it brings up such a variety of these experiences in me, from foolish and fool hardy infatuation and delusion to disappointment, anger, sadness and sometimes, even grief. I watch these arise. I typically react immediately without thought, and only later see the reaction for what it is. Rather than taking more of a stoic or meditative approach to these low vibrations: puffy white clouds, dark ominous gray clouds floating slowly across my bright blue skies and sunshine, why do I so often take a finite and fatalistic approach to all of these temporary things? As I see more clearly as the clouds move along, I reconnect to my blue sky; all else falls away.

I have come to realize that I truly do love B., in a very pure and genuine way. It is beautiful and illuminated, when I am not deceived by low vibrational passing clouds. I love who he is! What a glorious experience!

I have come to realize too, that I very much love myself as well. I love this curiousity left over from childhood. I love my innocence and my vulnerability. I love my niavity. I love my creative genious and my intellectual genious. I love my body, that has served me so well; my beautiful face with all its crinkles and flaws. I love my gentle, compassionate and kind approach to life! I love my endless hopefulness and my boundless enthusiasm. I love myself and value who I am so very much. I will be true to myself and honor all that I am: love, joy, beauty, flowing, open - and I will accept nothing less in my life or for myself - only these. All else will simply fall away.

So here, on this day, in this magical land of Cantabrigia, in the womb of this marvelous oak tree, with the Godess Gaia as my witness ... I have become my own beloved.

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Who will save Sri Lanka?

9 – Feb – 2010, Cambridge, Massachusetts


I have watched Sri Lanka, the days leading up to her presidential election of January 26, and now sit in disbelief in its aftermath, eerily reminiscent of the post election days in Iran several months ago.

I write a friend to inquire about the reports I am hearing. She writes back to say that she is not comfortable discussing politics; she is not certain if her internet postings are being monitored; Sri Lanka’s present state feels to her, more like that of Myanmar and she does not want trouble for herself and her family.

Today she leaves this comfort behind in her shock and fear resulting from the events of these last few days: the arrest of General Fonseka and of many of his associates, the forced retirements of other high ranking army officials, the dissolution of the parliament. She worries that anyone who identified with the opposition will now be a target, and this, then, will include her:

"I know I said I will not meddle in politics anymore but things have gone from bad to worse. They arrested the independent presidential candidate of the opposition and are holding him in military custody. He was the general who fought the thirty year long war; now all his contemporaries are arrested too. He's a man who risked his life three times for his country, but yet they're depriving him of his medicine and holding him captive, violating all human right laws in the whole world. In time to come they may just annihilate the members of the opposition, us, as they did to the Jews in Germany. I'm very upset, this country need not be like this, I cannot stand to watch all this.

Twelve top army officers including three Major Generals have been asked to retire from the service with immediate effect over a ‘political conspiracy’ while serving. Among these officers, there were two Brigadiers and Colonels, Lt. Colonels and Captains.

Last Friday the CID arrested Brigadier Duminda Keppetiwalana, a serving officer who is the Commandant of the Army Training School in Ampara. He held the position of Military Assistant when General Fonseka was Commander of the Army.

Accordingly, more than twenty other retired officers and soldiers are now in custody and more are due to be arrested. Another source said that a large number of senior and junior officers, who have been transferred to the office of the Chief of Defense Staff are to face inquiries in connection with the alleged ‘political conspiracy.”

I do not know what to say, what to write to my friend. How do I reassure her? There is no one – no entity stepping forward to prevent the M. Rajapaksa administration from proceeding to take what ever action they wish: arrest, detention, perhaps execution? With no clear mandate, the international community sits by and watches yet again as another potential tragedy unfolds, hands tied from taking any meaningful action.

Now, I read an Amnesty International report on the arrest of General Fonseka. It claims the General was preparing to offer testimony of war crimes against this current administration. This has been reported only following the General’s violent arrest yesterday.

(http://www.amnesty.org/en/news-and-updates/news/arrest-sri-lankan-opposition-leader-escalates-post-election-repression-20100209 )

Other reports indicate the arrest is to prevent a coup d’état. This has been generally reported leading up to the arrests - but one man’s coup d’état may be another’s assumption of his legitimate position had it not been for a rigged election. One cannot know what to believe.

I opt to believe the words of my friend. The question now is – what does one do? What action can I possibly take that will any impact at all? I cannot think of anything; all I can do is write.

Writing and publishing – exposure of humanitarian crimes – can sometimes create the line which is drawn between outrageous action taken by a desperate dictator and heinous crimes against humanity committed when despotism is left entirely unchecked.

And so today I write and hope that others will join me.

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Hail the New Year!

Here we sit in the twilight of 2009 shadows, revelling and reminiscing, while awaiting the dawn of the bright and shiny new year at this, the cusp of yet a new decade.

I can remember the ringing in of this previous decade as if it were yesterday ..Y2K .. do you remember? And here we find ourselves now in this familiar position once again - how very quickly this decade has unravelled and revealed itself! How very much it has shown to me.

"Fast away the old year passes... hail the new year lads and lasses."

I sit, I breathe, I collect my thoughts .. my accomplishments and my failings; my dear friends and countless drifters; my dreams, hopes and aspirations, as I look ahead to the opportunities - the possibilites - waiting for me down the path of this new year. For always, every where in life, there are endless possibilities.

I feel grateful for all that has come before: my family and intimate relations, the transient people I have met on this great journey, the joy I have felt, all the choices I have made, the experience I have lived through, the knowledge I have realised - for all of it has brought me to this beautiful place in my history, to this very moment in time, to me - for all of it has brought me .. to me.


"Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth; 5

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same, 10

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back. 15

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference."
-Robert Frost, 'The Road Not Taken.' 1920


I look ahead, down the long narrow path, to what awaits me - my future - with no fear, but rather only great excitement and enthusiasm.

I have so very much left on my 'to do' list of life!

How very fortunate I am to have this shiney new year; to own this healthy body, this sound mind, this adventurous spirit so as to carry on in my travels, my journeys .. though this lifetime called Katarina!

Bright beautiful blessings to you my lovely friends and fellow travellers, as we embark on another glorious year and a million new adventures!

Peace.

"The woods are lovely, dark and deep.
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep."
- Robert Frost, 'Stopping by the Woods on a Snowy Evening' 1923

Friday, October 9, 2009

A New Beginning: And the Nobel Peace Prize

(Repost from Jun 13: Demonstration of WHY Obama is awarded the Nobel Peace Prize - click on the title to view his CAIRO SPEECH: A NEW BEGINNING)

It is early morning on Saturday, Jun 13, in Harvard Square. The sun has not yet made its appearance, but I can hear the birds happily awaiting its arrival. I await this also!

I am preparing for a run along the Charles, and hope I make it in time to witness the sun rise...

A friend writes from Iran. The votes are in, they have been counted: Ahmadinejad will remain in power.

I feel a small disappointment - the energy surrounding Moussavi's campaign was simply tremendous. I thought perhaps Iran would be sharing our experience of 'change you can depend on' ... riding on its green revolution. Still, this election was incredible in its both participation and enthusiam.

Speaking of change you can depend on, I know you have heard about President Obama's speech in Cairo, and you have probably read reviews and criticisms. But have you watched the speech? I attach the link here (click on 'A New Beginning' the blog title to connect) so you may do this and draw your own conclusions.

It is a fairly long speech- almost an hour - so grab your coffee, sit back and relax, and take in all he has to say. Write me with your thoughts .. I am very interested to hear!

I personally, found this to be a brilliant approach to establishing dialogue with Middle Eastern countries. Upon my first viewing, I was both filled with excitement and joy, and moved to tears. I feel incredibly hopeful at possibilities for new relationships abroad. In fact, I found myself watching a second time... and a third. Change we can depend on .. Bravo, Mr. President!

As President Obama has already made overtures to Iran (the Naruz greeting and the commitment to conversation with Iran), and Ahmadinejad has himself made overtures to Washington (an invitation to debate global issues at the UN), I am hopeful these conversations will now begin. Certainly there remains great animosity between our governments, but dialogue is the first step to resolution!! Dialogue is the first step to world peace. I am glad our new President knows this and takes this action.

World Peace: What an exciting prospect!

World Peace through Dialogue ... what a revolutionary concept!! :) Imagine....

You can say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one.

Cheers to you my lovelies as you begin your day - to you and to world peace - and may all light, beauty, joy and love flow to you on this, one of the last beautiful spring mornings of June 2009!

Friday, August 28, 2009

Einstein's Theory on the human being...

"A human being is part of a whole
called by us
'UNIVERSE'
.... a part limited in time and space.

He experiences himself ...
his thoughts and his feelings ...
as something seperated from the rest...
a kind of optical delusion of his consiousness.

This delusion is a kind of prison for us
restricting us to our personal desires and
to affection for a few persons nearest to us.

Our task must be to free ourselves
from this prison
by widening our cirlce of compassion
to embrace all living creatures
and the whole of nature in its beauty."

Albert Einstien

Friday, July 10, 2009

IRAN AND CRIMES AGAINST HUMANITY - PLEASE SIGN AMENSTY INTERNATIONAL PETITION

(Please click on title to access AI Petition, thank you!)


SHOULD THE INTERNATIONAL COMMUNITY TAKE ACTION?

As I sit down to write today, I am filled with incredible wonder and admiration for the tenacity of the Iranian people and their unwavering commitment to secure the life they deserve for themselves and future generations within the Islamic Republic of Iran.

I am filled also with overwhelming sorrow that in this 21st century of humanity and its modern age of civilization, any group of people should have to incur such suffering and loss to secure their rights and their dignity as human beings.

There is an unbelievable escalation in violence and savagery each day toward these protesters on the streets of Iran. I am filled with tremendous sadness at my apparent total inability to do anything of substance to be of aid to my fellow human beings.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AkScOfYaQKQ

Could it be that it is time for international intervention - for there are many flagrant violations of individual rights as well as heinous crimes being committed against the Iranian people.

Iran's current illigitimate regime must remember that there exists international laws within the boundaries of which they have fully agreed to operate - they are in violation of these laws.

The unequivocal right to exercise one's freedom in political and civil matters are codified in the United Nations Convention for Civil and Political Rights.
(You may read this here: http://www.hrweb.org/legal/cpr.html)

The Islamic Republic of Iran has signed onto this convention. The current regime is therefore accountable to practice the principles within - those principles that the Iranian people now attempt to apply as they gather together.

In this regard, the Iranian government is failing miserably. It must be held accountable.

There exists also international laws which protect citizens against the mass brutality which we have witnessed in these past few weeks.

CRIMES AGAINST HUMANITY
The International Criminal Court, to which the Islamic Republic of Iran has also signed on, in its "Elements of Crimes,"Article 7, "Crimes Against Humanity," states that ...
(Read document in its entirety here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Crime_against_humanity)...

Article 7 Crimes are "among the most serious crimes to the international community as a whole;" they constitute a serious attack on human dignity.

These crimes contain the following elements: the acts have been inflicted upon one or more civilians, and they are "committed as part of a widespread or systematic attack directed at the civilian population, and the perpetrator knows that the conduct is part of or intended the conduct to be part of a widespread or systematic attack directed against the civilian population." These violations include such actions as (1)murder, (e) imprisonment or other sever deprivation of physical liberty, and/or (f) torture, whether physical or mental, or some combination of the same.This seems to summarize what is occurring these past ten days in Iran.T

As we have all witnessed, CRIMES AGAINST HUMANITY have been and continue to be committed against the people of Iran by order of the current controlling regime of the Islamic Republic of Iran, in retaliation of the exercise of citizen's political and civil rights as secured under the UN Convention for Civil and Political Rights, to which the Iranian government is a party.

CRIMES AGAINST HUMANITY HAVE BEEN PERPETRATED UNDER DIRECTION OF THE IRANIAN GOVERNMENT IN ACCORDANCE WITH ARTICLE 7, SECTIONS 1(a), 1(e) AND 1(f) OF THE ICC 'ELEMENTS OF CRIMES' (in accordance with the ROME STATUTES).

The United Nations should step in and the ICC should issue arrest warrants for government officials and all responsible parties.

LET THE RESPONSIBLE PARTIES BE CHARGED ACCORDINGLY!

And let the Iranian people get on with their daily lives in peace, in liberty, and in dignity.

UPDATE JUN 25: I have just come across this information as reported by Al Jezeera afew days ago: Payam Akhavan, former UN War Crimes Prosecutor atThe Hague and co-founder of the Iran Human Rights Documentation Centre, is working on a petition to send to the UN Security Council and The Hague to look into cases of crimes against humanity in Iran.

WATCH HERE: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1hvHja_yi8w

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Revolutionary Road...: Iran: Doctors denounce terror in the hospitals, Le Figaro International, France (translation)

Revolutionary Road...: Iran: Doctors denounce terror in the hospitals, Le Figaro International, France (translation)

Letters from Tehran ...
Dear Katarina;Here in Iran, news is not true. They say that nobody is killed!!! They say that we don’t know who shoot people!!! They say that people shoot each other and destroy stores!!!

But you can watch the films below carefully and you will find the truth. You can see in the film that the guards come on the roof and shoot people.You see in films when they shoot people and kill someone, others take him and shut "I will kill, I will kill, the one who killed my brother"!

"Moosavi" and his wife were arrested at home but now are not. But lots of close friends are arrested and it is not known where they are.

Some of the members of parliament of Iran have requested to visit the arrested people, but they are not allowed yet.I think other countries especially UN must do something. If not may be more than thousands of people will be killed.